The prayer I wrote for my name changing ceremony. Embracing my spiritual name…

FullSizeRender-1 Beautiful Creator, God/Goddess, Mother/Father, Universe, All That Is,

We thank you.

In these new times that we are traversing on this planet earth, help us to be brave.

Help us to remember that each day is a gift and tomorrow is not guaranteed.

Help us to live from our heart, in harmony with our inner truth and our divine calling, in service to humanity and the world.

Help us to remember that we are creative sparks of Spirit and with every thought and feeling we emit, we are creating our world. Help us to see life’s challenges as opportunities to stay focused on creating heaven on earth.

Help us to forgive everyone for everything, including and especially ourselves.

Help us to eradicate fear and doubt from our minds and hearts, so that we can live fully without hesitation, in our light and in our glory, bathing the world with our greatest joy,

Help us to remember that if we want peace and harmony in the world that we must have in it our own hearts. Please help us heal ourselves, our ancestors and our relationships. Heal our families and our communities, and fill them with peace now and forever.

Help us to love each other better, because In the end, love is truly all that matters. Help us to see the best in everyone and honor each person’s individual path.

Help us to remember that each moment is a chance to start again, that we are free, free to create the life we imagine, free to be ourselves, free to just be.

Help us to surrender each day to your guidance, knowing that we are never alone and you are just a thought away.

Help us to remember that where there is light, darkness cannot exist and the light is who we are. Help us to see ourselves as the miracle we are.

Help us to remember that at our deepest level of being, we are love, we are light, we are One.

Help us to live in the Oneness as many moments as we can, so our light will ignite the fire in other souls.

Help us to see beauty everyday all around us, in us and in others, even when it’s hard.

Thank you for blessing us with true divine abundance in all ways, thank you for this beautiful planet earth, for our health, our friends, our families, for this opportunity to be alive in this unique and momentous new time here on earth. Amen.

May the blessings of All That You Are be reflected back upon you, and may your magnificent heart radiate them out into the world for all to receive.

Love, SoulFire

Helpful realistic prayer

IMG_4737 2Heavenly Father, help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day and is rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can’t make change correctly is a worried 19-year old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares.

Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together.

Heavenly Father, remind us each day that, of all the gifts you give us, the greatest gift is love. It is not enough to share that love with those we hold dear. Open our hearts not to just those who are close to us, but to all humanity. Let us be slow to judge and quick to forgive, show patience, empathy and love.

What I dislike about myself the most.

changing-myself-Rumi-Picture-QuoteIt’s 8 pm, Saturday night. I figure it’s a good time to head to the Dollar Tree Store, being “off peak” shopping hours. I can get in and out fast. I am not a shopper. Once upon a time when I was a teenager and through out college into my early twenties, I made shopping a part time career. I actually thought about becoming a professional shopper. Now I am the polar opposite. I cannot stand the malls or even going to the store, any store. I get anxiety, start sweating and have a hard time breathing after a certain time. Usually one hour is my max. I also have no patience when it comes to waiting on lines. This is something I have always struggled with, and felt frustrated with myself about. I never go into the bank, only use ATMs; and if I walk into the post office and there’s a line I just walk right out. My thought was that it was a character defect or some part of my brain that God forgot to wire correctly when He/She was making me. Like my sense of direction; if the sun is not out and I’m trying to figure out which way is north, south, east or west, I am doomed…guaranteed to go in wrong direction. I am definitely no Magellan. So I just figured like my lack of sense of direction, along with my intolerance for lines and no patience for traffic, there was a part of me that went awry. Part of the reason I quit my job as a financial consultant, besides it was boring as balls and I sat on my butt all day long, was driving in rush hour traffic. I could not deal with it. It would send me into eye twitches that would last a month. Talk about embarrassing when you are opening an account to invest money for someone and you can’t look directly at them because your eye won’t stop twitching. I had a bad case of impatience.

Tonight on line at the Dollar Tree however something of a miracle happened in my life. And yes, to me it was a miracle because it was a complete shift in behavior. When I was younger I was ignorant; I didn’t know I was being an ugly rude person. I can see how that saying, “Ignorance is bliss,” can be true in a way. It is bliss to you because you have no idea the toxic energy you are spilling out onto others and the world. When you start to follow a spiritual path you begin looking at yourself and seeing all of you, the good and the bad, the ugly and the uglier and all the parts of you that you would like to change. Unfortunately change doesn’t happen overnight. As a result, when you start to “wake up” you find yourself struggling even more. Now you are no longer oblivious to the totally embarrassing, rude, non attractive ways you behave in public or private, but the old pattern hasn’t changed yet. You become frustrated with yourself and ashamed, which is even worse.

My type B friends probably will not really “get” this whole situation, but I know my type AAA friends will. So you know when you are in a rush, you strategically pick the shortest line at the store and then you get stuck waiting because someone had an issue and the cashier has to call for help. You look over at the longer line you were going to get on with longing as they are moving swiftly and efficiently. Ugh I should have went on that line you think, I would have been out of here by now. The annoyance begins to creep over you and you start to shift from side to side, making those annoying sucking sounds with your mouth and sighing loud enough for everyone to hear. Soon this negative energy is seeping over to other people as they start to get anxious and impatient. Negative energy is fast catching. When this happens to me, often I just leave my stuff and walk out, that’s how bad I can’t stand there and wait.

So tonight at the Dollar Tree I was on line and the cashier, who was an elderly woman was very slow. I mean slower than slow, probably the slowest cashier I have ever encountered in my life. Her line was the shorter one with only one other option open. It’s the holiday season and everyone is trying to get last minute shopping in and the line began building. Being sensitive to energy I could feel the tension starting to elevate. She was wrapping my glasses and mugs in newspaper one at a time, so slow and methodical that I had to take over, making a joke that I could finally go home and read the newspaper. It wasn’t a funny joke but I made her laugh and cut the tension slightly, until the dreaded final transaction. When she took my credit card she had no idea what to do. I almost felt like this was too weird to be happening, like any minute John Quinones from the TV show, “What Would You Do” would walk out. She fumbled with the keys to the cash register, kept pressing buttons and nothing worked. We sat there for probably five minutes which is a long time for a normal simple transaction, which seemed like an eternity at this point. The natives were getting beyond restless by now and I felt the hostility of the woman behind me as she kept trying to make eye contact with me. She was invested in getting me to join in with her disapproval and disbelief, anger and impatience. For the first time in my life, A. it wasn’t me starting the toxic energy and B. I did not participate with her. I refused to look at her. I would not join in with her negativity. I looked down at the poor cashiers’ hands and they looked old and deformed as if riddled with arthritis. My heart immediately felt for her. Not that there is anything wrong with working as a cashier at the Dollar Tree, but when she was a little girl I’m sure her dream wasn’t to go back to work after she retired as a cashier to make minimum wage and deal with rude and obnoxious people. She was someone’s mother and grandmother, I am sure. I felt so much compassion for her. She kept apologizing and I kept telling her it was ok. Meanwhile the woman behind me would not let up with her hostile energy. I was determined to hold the space of love and compassion, so determined that the angry woman left the line and went over to the other register to wait. The elderly cashier finally called out for help. I held my breath in suspense hoping the young cashier wouldn’t answer her with an impatient attitude. She didn’t, she was kind and respectful in her tone and words and showed her what to do. Phew! That made me feel better.

I have been that angry impatient woman on line behind me. I cannot judge her because I was once her and there might be a time in the future that I fall off and am her again. But I know how good it felt to be the light, to be the higher vibration and hold the space of love in that moment. I will try my hardest to stay there. I mean is the five extra minutes of waiting on line going to affect your life that much? No, not really. But will waiting there with patience, understanding and kindness affect the quality of the world? Yes, I believe it will. Sometimes that’s all we can do, but that’s what it takes to change the world. One small, kind feeling, deed, transaction/interaction with each other at a time. Imagine how the world would be if we all had more patience, tolerance and compassion for each other, even and especially when they are not doing what you need them to do, as fast as you would like them to, driving as fast as you would like them to, or being their best. We can shift the vibration of the world. We are.

As the woman finalized my transaction, she apologized sweetly again for about the tenth time. I said “It’s ok, no worries. Merry Christmas”, and sent her a big wave of love her way! Walking out I noticed the angry woman still on line at the other register. Karma’s a bitch!

Peace on Earth. Kindness to all, even the angry ones…especially the angry ones. Merry Christmas soul family.

BE the light.

Quote-RumiBeing an empath is not easy. In my line of work, it is a double edged sword. It helps me to connect to my clients, understand their needs and intuitively guide them to their highest healing. Yet as a human being in the world we live in today it can be brutal to the heart. For those astrologically inclined, I’m a Pisces sun and Scorpio moon. Whenever I tell people who understand the science of astrology they usually cringe. I am beyond sensitive, and I go deep, deeper than most. Not only do I go there, that’s where I live. Sometimes I think I can feel the suffering of the hearts of the entire world. Rare is a day when I am not crying, and don’t get me wrong they are tears of joy as well, as I am witness to the amazing people in this world that continue to do kind and selfless acts. I have learned however, I cannot under any circumstances watch the news, unless I want to feel complete fear, helplessness and despair and become a blubbering mess. And what’s the point of that. Is that helping the world? No, it is not. Being compassionate and having empathy is a lot different than having sympathy. Sympathy keeps you down in the pit of despair with the negativity. Empathy raises people up. By feeling sorry for others’ suffering does help them at all. I am sure there are many people reading this now that can relate to me. If you have a heart and haven’t been fully desensitized yet, you can’t help but feeling bad and getting caught up in the atrocities and needless suffering that exists in the world. What does help then? What can we do? Well, for starters try not to dwell in it and talk about it. I know that’s hard but just as gossiping is not a virtuous trait, gossiping about the darkness in the world just keeps it alive. Everything is energy. What you focus on you create. We are powerful creative creators and we have created this mess of a world we live in. It is our job as responsible spiritual/human beings to uncreate the darkness and bring back the light. When you enter a dark room, the only thing you need to do is flip the switch and the light comes on. That is what is happening now on the planet. Individuals, communities and societies are waking up, they are switching on their light. We are waking up the the truth of who we are and how to really make a lasting change. That change has to happen with a shift in consciousness, or it won’t last. To quote big Albert, “No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.” Isn’t it about time we get that? As individuals and as a whole? It is said that when you are uplifted you uplift 30,000 people. It’s time we started uplifting each other. Miracles are possible and as a matter of fact they become a way of life when we finally wake up to who we really are and the power we truly have; and we use that power for the good of all. My task as I see it is to be as peaceful, kind and true to myself, and be the light for others. I must eradicate anger, negativity, judgment, criticism, and self betrayal from my mind and my heart… for it is a form of violence. And then I try to influence and heal others in my little corner of the Universe as best as I can. In other words: heal yourself, heal the world. From that space we can then unite our intentions, prayers and energy by sending waves of love and light to areas of the world that need it. Take Mexico for example. It was suppose to be the worst storm/hurricane that they have ever seen. But not one person was killed! That was a miracle, truly. How did that happen? People from all over the world prayed, sent their intentions and energy to Mexico. Can we make a difference? Yes we can.

“If there is peace in the heart, there will be beauty in the character If there is beauty in the character, there will be harmony in the home. If there is harmony in the home, there will be order in the nation. When there is order in the nation, there will be peace in the world.” -Lao Tse

WE ARE ONE. ACT LIKE IT.

My father’s passing. Love never dies.

75251be60a7e2027685393fb51006387It was Saturday, September 5th, and I was on my way to fire island to work for the day. I opened my email in the morning and deleted the usual gazillion emails from my Dad, most of them silly forwards. My Dad had a stroke around 14 years ago and never fully recovered; the computer and technology were his best friend. There was one however that caught my attention: “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.”  (Revelation 21:4) I felt so sad after reading this. One, because I had been going through a really rough time in my life recently and still struggling to heal my heart and two, because this was the scripture I put on my daughters’ fathers’ mass card when he died. All day long, even in my most favorite place in the world, I couldn’t shake this sadness. I had a new client that day with back pain and her 8 year old daughter came over to me while I was working on her Mom, put her arms around me and told me she loved me. I had to fight back the tears. Then as we were finishing up with the tab, her angel daughter kept hugging me and wouldn’t let me go. Looking back now I realize she knew I was sad and was going to need those hugs. As I was riding my bike back to my car I passed by a church with a mass happening. Funny I never knew there was a church on that street. I stopped my bike and sat outside on the front steps and listened to the mass. I thought about my father and couldn’t help feeling this terrible ache in my heart. As I was driving home across the Robert Moses Bridge I prayed to my angels to send me a friend, that I didn’t want to be alone that night. When I got home I got a text from my brother, “Dad just died.” I knew it. My Dad knew it too, he knew he was going to die that day. It was bitter sweet for me because I was never close to my father. He adopted me when I was 4 years old, and even though I lived with him when my parents got divorced, we were never close or had a good relationship. I felt sad because I wasn’t there for him and I cried because I lost a father that I never really had, and that was like a double loss. At that moment I began talking to my Dad like he was right next to me. It felt like he was with me. I said to him, “Dad if you are here can you be a father to me now and be there for me? I need help. I am struggling and I am hurt, please help me.”  I was walking my dog, Karma, as the tears were flowing down my face and within a few minutes I felt a relief within.  I felt the sadness and pain dissolve, and I could breathe deeply again. I felt light.  It was amazing. The angels had already had a call in to my friend Lisa…and she came over with sushi and chocolate and stayed till midnight talking with me. I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends in my life. I don’t know what I’d do without them. Since my Dad has passed I have had a better relationship with him now than I had when he was alive. He couldn’t help me when he was stuck in his disabled human body in Florida, but now that he is free, in his spiritual essence, he is with me and helping me everyday to heal my heart. My Dad can be with me now just as quickly as I think about him. I find peanut shells, (his nickname for me was peanut or peanup), and I see his initials FJZ on license plates all the time. In India when someone leaves their body they say they are now in their “big form.” Meaning they are now everywhere, connected to us all. It makes sense. Our true essence is soul, light, infinite consciousness. When we are in a limited human body there is only so much we can do. When we are free of the body, or the “suit” we are truly free and are everywhere.  I am amazed at this miracle and grateful to have my Dad back in my life now when I need him the most. I pray that if you have lost a loved one that you know that they are still with you in spirit and always will be. Know that they are truly free and at peace. They are home with God, surrounded by unconditional love and acceptance, and they are with you. Love is the only thing in this Universe that doesn’t die. May you be surrounded by infinite love and unconditional acceptance and peace. God bless us all.

Aging gracefully

IMG_3796Whenever I see a flower and look carefully at it, noticing the brilliance and depth of the color deep in the center I think of a woman’s beauty. The superficial trappings of the world we live in, especially in our culture with all the beauty magazines everywhere, the “reality” shows, the celebrities and the media…keeps us imprisoned in how we are “suppose to look” that is considered beautiful.  It is dangerous to our self-esteem. It takes away from our uniqueness and worthiness if we are not careful. I mean how could we ever keep up with all the actresses, celebrities, artists and pop stars looking so called “perfect”? It makes us seem like we have a lot of work to do just to be beautiful never the less maintain that ageless beauty.  We live in a culture that frowns upon wrinkles, cellulite, fat, thin lips, gray hair, varicose veins, small breasts, droopy breasts, small tushies and large labia. Yes, I said labia. Labia surgery is the latest thing now so you can make your vagina look like a prepubescent teen. It’s crazy how our culture and the world we live in supports the young and doesn’t give props and respect to the older or elderly. In other cultures, such as Native American Indian or even in some countries in Europe, being an elder is a wonderful thing, You are looked up to for your wisdom and compassion. It’s a compliment if someone says, “Hi, you are looking old today.” Can you imagine if someone said that to you? We would all be offended, myself included. I have already calmed my anxiety about aging, knowing I can get “work” done if need be in the future. It’s terrible. How do we age gracefully then? One thing is for starters, as women we must support each other. In the highest truth, we are all sisters and we need to stop judging and being competitive and petty with one another. We are all beautiful in our own special ways, and we need to start or continue to lift each other up.  And if you are with a man or partner that doesn’t acknowledge your beauty, your real inner true beauty, then find someone else who does. A woman’s beauty comes from within. It is her strength, her compassion, her kindness, her nurturing, her love and her heart that is her true beauty. Defining yourself or even attaching too much attention to the body or the “shell” is a set up for disappointment and feeling bad about yourself. The “shell” or the body inevitably will change and grow older. There is no stopping that.  Be the love, the light and the grace that you already are within your heart and then radiate your beauty and your light out into the world. Be you, be beautiful you! gibran quote

Walking in Faith

slideshow09It’s hard to have faith when everything is uncertain. But that is the way faith is grown. You don’t need faith when everything is fine, going your way. That’s not when faith is needed. Faith is something we might not be able to see or feel or smell or touch, but somewhere in the depths of our being it calls to us. It gets you off the floor when all you want to do is lie down and die, it get you to that yoga class that you know somehow you need, it pushes you gently to keep going, no matter how hard life gets, no matter what your circumstances may be, it is the voice that says, don’t give up, you can do it, help is on the way, just please don’t give up. I know your tired and I know your scared but walk, walk with me, take one day at a time, one step at a time, one breath at a time, it will be ok. Faith is what puts the smile back on your face and in your heart. Faith bring out the best in us, our human spirit of perseverance and steadfast strength. Faith is knowing that no matter how bad things may seem or how awful or depressed you may feel, spring still comes, flowers still bloom, babies are still born and people still fall in love and marry.  Faith is knowing the sun will still come up in the morning and angels will lie down with you when you rest at night.

Faith brings the right people into your life at the right time, because God brings you nothing but angels.

 

A Mother’s Love

994532_664419183587931_1744142294_n (1)In Buddhism they believe that we have had hundreds and even thousands of lifetimes, and so in at least one of those lifetimes we have all been a mother. In Buddhist philosophy there is no greater love than that of a mother for her child, nor almost any greater sacrifice than a woman giving her body for the birth of a child. A mother’s love is selfless and unconditional. Motherhood is thus revered for its lessons in love and sacrifice and held as the highest love on the planet.

Since we have all been a mother at one time in our many lifetimes, lets celebrate motherhood in a different way. Not only honoring the mother of the family but honoring the love, nurturing, caring, compassion and reverence for all life that’s within all of us.  Let’s bring back the balance of the feminine to the planet. We have been living in a masculine based society for too long. And while we need that masculine energy for creation if it’s not balanced with the love and nurturing of the feminine, well…you see what’s happening on our planet.

That mother’s love which is in all of us needs to be cultivated and brought out and shared with the world so we can all live in peace and harmony once again. First we must start with the individual, and nurture and love ourselves; then we extend that love to our families, then our communities, then the world. If we all got a little more serious about the power of love that’s within us and took responsibility for our little garden of the Universe, the earth would transform.  And speaking of earth it’s no coincidence that the earth is referred to as Mother Earth. We must care and honor and tend to Her as well. Mother Earth sustains and nourishes us after all. We must water our spiritual garden and take care of each other.  Namaste!  Happy Mothers’ Day to all!

Listening to your body, the most accurate instrument you have

stef1234I recently experienced a minor set back in my physical fitness. I found out last fall I have a pretty good tear in the meniscus in my knee.  Last summer I got the intuitive hit or message from my higher self that I need to do more strength training for my body, especially my legs and hips. I ignored that message and thought I could just continue with my running bare foot on the beach and do my intense yoga poses and not suffer the consequences. But my body told me different. With each injury or even illness or disease we experience  there is usually a lesson to be learned. The key is we have to be paying attention. Simple but powerful advice for anything in life…”Pay attention.”

Remember each day we wake up we are different, constantly regenerating. There is nothing stagnant about what’s going on inside your body. Billions of cells die every day and billions more are created. All without your will. Amazing!

It’s important to keep in perspective that even though we have this amazing body, it’s not who we are at our core. It’s something we have, it’s not who we are and it does not define us. Being in a physical body is a gift. Our body is the vehicle or vessel through which our soul expresses our individual divine imprint on the earth. It’s the vehicle that allows your soul to shine.

When you are in tune with your body, your life is smooth and harmonious. Your body is a finely tuned instrument that can guide you to the choices for your highest good when you are in sync with it, from exercise to rest to nutrition and pretty much everything. It’s amazing if you think about it, we came from the union of an egg and a sperm. We are pretty miraculous. Let’s start treating ourselves like the miracle we are. Namaste!

 

 

The Healing Power of Yoga

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The word Yoga comes from the classical language of Sanskrit which is from India.  Yoga literally means to “yoke;” or to integrate, join, unite.  I believe yoga can have a different meaning for each person.  What yoga means to me is freedom.  Yoga saved my life.  I was heading down the path of self destruction.  I was a deeply wounded angry woman and single mother,  living in a state of chronic stress.  It wasn’t until my body broke down that I started to take my life and my healing seriously.  The health benefits of yoga are enormous.  Besides giving me my body and my health back by being able to walk and function again with no pain, the yoga poses helped with my depression and anxiety.  In combination with the philosophy and spiritual aspect of yoga it was the fast track to healing.  That was 14 years ago and I’m not going to lie…it wasn’t easy.  It was a roller coaster ride and with the amount of ups I had, I had twice as many downs.  I wouldn’t change it for the world though.  It has given me inner strength, wisdom and compassion that I would not have today.   I am a new person.  I have completely transformed my life and have an abundance of love, health, joy, peace and prosperity in my life now. I have beautiful loving relationships and I am living my divine purpose.  It is not easy to change.  We resist change, but it’s key to know that it’s our ego that doesn’t like change and our ego is not who we are.  We are a soul.  A soul that is infinite and eternal.  Our soul, who we are at our core, is for expansion, creation, sharing our gifts, being happy on the inside and out.  Our soul wants us to be in our natural state of being, which is perfect health, abundant, joyful, peaceful and free…living your truth….not anyone elses’.  Getting out of my head and living in my heart and from my truth is what yoga has given me.  It has healed my life, physically, mentally and emotionally,  and now I am in the position to help and heal others…my true purpose for this lifetime. I don’t think it gets any better than that!  Why not make your New Years Resolution more meaningful than a temporary change.  Why not make a commitment to yourself to do whatever it takes to be happy from the inside out and to live from the dream that’s hidden in your heart.  It is possible. Anything is possible.

Ignite Your Soul Fire! 

“Faith is the ability to see the Invisible; To believe in the Incredible; That will enable you to receive what the masses say is Impossible.”
-Clarence Smithison